Sitting with my Sage

He who came to my aide and bring light to the personal drama, personal mind storm:

"Just let it go.  Ego is great to drive us to achieve something, but horrible when used in hindsight.  Then it becomes that silly little brat, sulky brat.

You have guardian angel, what would Sitting Duck say...

Be happy for others' achievements, we sometimes feel the need for acknowledgements when others get it, but are most hard in ourselves because we see all with a critical eye.

In a night of hubris, of fanfare, sometimes it seems like it's the world.  

The most important thing in the end, is - are you happy doing the thing you do?

But sometimes we see a lot of hubris, and mistaken it for happiness - that's why it's important to set a goal."

Me: Must remember to come back to home ground.  I tend to get drifted off by all moments.

"It's difficult to fight the feeling when you see a crowd of hubris. It's easy to get confused amidst the flash and glitter.  I step away, and continue doing what I enjoy, not forgetting why I do what I do. "



On Fame 

"Well, we all want acknowledgement.  Especially as we come to a certain age.  Thing is it can come from many sources and in many forms.  We just need to find the honest source that suits us.
And in the end, it is the pursuit of happiness whatever it maybe, so why worry what source gives you the most happiness?

Maybe it's a bit self-serving but it keeps us happy?"

Me: Isn't most things self-serving though?  It's almost like survival? 

"It is, the survival of the self.  The self is most what we make of it."

Me: The Self! Buddhism comes in.

"Buddhism tells you to eventually, even lose the self.  But in order to lose it, you must first honestly discover it.  You cannot lose that which you do not know.

And the self is a construct, it is the best version of what we chose to be.  What we are by nature, isn't always the self we want to be.  Buddhism teaches one to first rise above our primal instincts, to covet, to want, to need, to struggle, to suffer.

And once you achieve that, you let that go as well.

无为，无我。"



:) Thank you Sage.

On this note, I forgive myself for being swept away in the moment and lost sight of my true anchor.
And I allow space to question myself from time to time.