Hanging on for dear life for Meaning

What if there is nothing more than...

...what if there is nothing much after intimacy?

What do you seek from life and from people?  

This girl is so worried about the lack of meaning, the lack of deep meaning, fancy philosophy and big projects of life.

No no no.  Bring it all back to this very moment.  How about you just start from this very moment, and see what is the meaning of this moment, this morning?

Breathe.

Yes, that's better.  This morning's meaning consist of making bed, greeting the plants, drinking the warm lemon water, putting the dry dishes away, soaking the rice-noodles for lunch, choosing a workout video and get to it. 

And breathe in every moment of it.

You don't have to worry about what happens after you screw that guy, one day, later on, next week, next month?  

You don't have to worry about what happens if you have nothing to say to him the day after.

You don't have to worry about what happens if he is nothing interesting after all.

You don't have to worry about what happens if you never meet another interesting man.

Just, drink the warm water and let it go down your throat easy.

Let the water flow.

Let it flow.

Flow.

Breathe.

Telling a friend about this: 

"i was asking myself a hypothetical question - some what if

like "what if there is nothing than what you see on the surface?" 

what if there isn't anything deeper 

bla bla

then my answer to that was - after walking around the house for 10 mins

the act of seeking meaning in everything is going to destroy the beauty of everything, through this desperate need for profound meaning in everything

the solution i gave myself was - 

just focus on what i have in front of me now and do it fully present 

drink lemon water 

putting the dry dishes away

making my bed 

staring out from window." 

"there are many solutions to restlessness - just that even though we are smart enough to know the answers, we are not smart enough to actually carry out those solutions , hahah

like - as simple as just

go for a walk in nature 

read a good book 

writing 

dancing - good music 

take care of others

clean the house

pay bills." 

Namaste.