age of innocence, gone + theatre slut strikes back!

am in reminiscing mood today....remembering my earlier days.

i was the biggest star-struck when i first came to Klang Valley in 1996. to me, KL is a heaven swamped with famous artists, personalities...and other colourful characters. i have vivid memories of my countless encounters with these famous people in KL. i remember when i stopped Harith Iskander in Tower Records and talked to him about my singing career (non-existent back then); i stalked Jit Murad to sign my poster....then i met more people: Sheila Majid, Amir Yusof, Jo Kukathas, Aflin Shauki, Deanna Yusof, Mano Maniam, Puala M. Ali, Yasmin Yusof, Allan Pereira, Antares, Kam Raslan...many many more.

i guess it's the aging factor, just like how things lose their magic on us as we grow up/old. i can't help but feel a little sad, the innocence is leaving me...remembering how exciting it was back then for me, it's just depressing to know suddenly these famous people are no longer `famous' people who would make me stop in my track and talk to them. they are just people now, not stars.

i used to adore all the theatre actors, stage crews, lighting people, box office officers, script writers, directors...i would work for free to be in that exciting world of performing arts. there was this one stage manager who used to hate me (a friend told me, after the stage manager bitched about me to her) or my guts, called me a wannabe.

yes, i was the biggest wannabe around and i was friendlier and very very bubbly. my nick name back then was `theatre slut', after many front-of-house jobs, having been seen at many performances, parties, and done free work for theatres.

SM said i used to make like five new friends every week, and i had soooo many friends.

it makes me happy to know that some people will remember me as the chirpy/happy person. through the years i pondered the meaning of friendship and i guess that has altered the way i socialise and make friends. these days i can count the number of REAL friends i have with two hands...i'm neither sad or happy, it's just life, a trade off for having fewer friends but more meaningful friendships.

having said that, i do feel the need to meet more people...i have not been seriously making new friends, in the last two years. i will try to make up for the two lost years...hehe, so watch out! the theatre slut is coming back, in full force!!!